one.
i need to tell you that i have dust beneath my fingernails and that it
collects between my fingers, clumps in my veins, feathers and flakes
in my eyes and everything is crumbling.
and if you are a mountain peak,
i am cliff faces eroding
i am houses edging
closer to
the edge.
what i'm trying to say is i am not young, no, not really.
two.
maybe, i was not created to live like this.
i pluck at my ribs.
the sky has fallen, and the stars have shattered and
i have the sensation of falling, distantly
and, bursting like supernovas across my bedsheets
a kaleidoscope of energy and light and heat in a heartbeat.
i want to be the f
You only thought you loved me.
in the beginning, i was from Lemnos and you were from the side of the A451
i was a fire, all sharp tongue and burning passion
- and i temporarily ran out of oxygen, you see
so I slit your wrist quietly, in the night
pushed you, in front of a Sainsbury's lorry
submerged your head in the bath
and watched life,
bleed
out of your eyes.
or i dreamt that i did. I think we might have had similar dreams.
in the end, i suppose you thought I was in control, that I was dependent,
that I was self-confident, self-assured,
that i was something, anything, - without you.
or did you think that your w
i am 292 feet underwater and 292 feet out of my depth.
i am a pebble, sinking, into the deep
water pools like cyanide in the corner of my eye
i see azure, turquoise, ultramarine, cerulean
it fills my lungs my bones and my throat
i am silently being strangled in front of you
from the inside;
and how many words are there anyway for-
i. arsenic when it burns
burns bright
with the colour blue
I tell you that a twitch
in your right arm could be myoclonic
that Beethoven died in 1827,
a clotting disorder is called coagulopathy,
you do not understand.
ii. copper sulphate when heated
one.
i need to tell you that i have dust beneath my fingernails and that it
collects between my fingers, clumps in my veins, feathers and flakes
in my eyes and everything is crumbling.
and if you are a mountain peak,
i am cliff faces eroding
i am houses edging
closer to
the edge.
what i'm trying to say is i am not young, no, not really.
two.
maybe, i was not created to live like this.
i pluck at my ribs.
the sky has fallen, and the stars have shattered and
i have the sensation of falling, distantly
and, bursting like supernovas across my bedsheets
a kaleidoscope of energy and light and heat in a heartbeat.
i want to be the f
You only thought you loved me.
in the beginning, i was from Lemnos and you were from the side of the A451
i was a fire, all sharp tongue and burning passion
- and i temporarily ran out of oxygen, you see
so I slit your wrist quietly, in the night
pushed you, in front of a Sainsbury's lorry
submerged your head in the bath
and watched life,
bleed
out of your eyes.
or i dreamt that i did. I think we might have had similar dreams.
in the end, i suppose you thought I was in control, that I was dependent,
that I was self-confident, self-assured,
that i was something, anything, - without you.
or did you think that your w
i am 292 feet underwater and 292 feet out of my depth.
i am a pebble, sinking, into the deep
water pools like cyanide in the corner of my eye
i see azure, turquoise, ultramarine, cerulean
it fills my lungs my bones and my throat
i am silently being strangled in front of you
from the inside;
and how many words are there anyway for-
i. arsenic when it burns
burns bright
with the colour blue
I tell you that a twitch
in your right arm could be myoclonic
that Beethoven died in 1827,
a clotting disorder is called coagulopathy,
you do not understand.
ii. copper sulphate when heated
You used to flutter like cicadas,
glow like lightning bugs,
radiate optimism like it could
never die.
It did.
Your spine is crawling
out of your skin, centipedal,
creeping, rejected by your
own back with the
tissues beneath it.
Thyroid stung by wasps,
swollen, throbbing,
rage sucking you down,
the blackness calls
for a friend.
Pessimism is a live-in guest
that never wants to leave,
sucking dry elegance,
sustenance, essence
Light is shrieking.
Your Skeleton Glows. by Self-Intoxication, literature
Literature
Your Skeleton Glows.
What I don't want is glitter falling into my eyes
when I look up lovingly at you, head on your bowed
thighs. You are too much, you are the kind of fire
that you cannot touch. Your mouth is a dark star
cave with secrets that I don't want to touch. I
can hear you chewing up bits of bones of men,
laughing, always laughing. All three of us
had freckles and were born with the inability
to ever completely heal a wound. I don't want
to stare at a big mess for the rest of my life,
just hoping it doesn't get any bigger. What I
don't want are your infections, or the tone
of your voice when you're insecure. What I
don't want for at
I've got two brain cells left;
one's standing still
and the other is chasing it.
a train
tied
to its tracks;
a plane crash
replacing
it.
a hemisphere
cut in half -
distance
in fractions
reviewed.
My mind is running down my face
and I can't find a cup
to catch it in.
life's
something that
keeps happening.
and, while
conscious (of this fact),
you think
(nothing)
of the moments
it's happening
to you.
My ears fell off a while ago,
if you are still talking
in the helium of a night
where constellations ignite
the blood-spattered atrium
of a late summer's sky,
I find myself a comet
shooting the urban grid
in an urgency as I race
a suicidal rim on two wheels
in the blackness between the fires,
my red-shifted thoughts crossing
light years out-of-body
and outliving me
till the awareness of you
slingshots me at Mach speed
to await your arrival
long before it happens,
caught at the last light
so close to my destination,
inhaling the danger of you,
where to idle the demon
begs disaster, even if the
interlude proves a watershed
by Neptune's light, I will
wish to death
Im Sarah, and i've never uploaded any of my poetry on the internet before, so um, be nice. Or cruel, I was only joking. Cruel is fine.
Im naturally a very reserved person, so showing anyone my personal writing is a new experience, and a bit terrifying but I really feel like I needed to do this. I consider this an experiment, as ive never given anyone the chance to read my poems, and hopefully I will improve. c:
No problem! You have some really beautiful poetry, like stunningly beautiful. I'm just sorry its like 2 in the morning and i'm too tired to make any meaningful comments on them!